It’s amazing how much a mall is
like a church. The minute I step in from the cold winter rain, 3 ladies in
beautiful clothes usher me in, inviting me to find join the service in the holy
sanctuary. They seem to accept and welcome anyone from any religion, culture,
or race. As I walk in towards the center of the mall, bright colors from all
directions capture my attention. I take a deep breath and an aroma of
creativity and ingenuity cover me. Everything I need is in here. I run from one
store to another admiring all the different characters I can buy. I shoot a
glance at a pair of basketball shoes and suddenly I find myself shooting up
towards the rim like Michael Jordan and slamming the ball into the hoop. I look
at a tuxedo and imagine myself stepping out of a black limousine, walking down
a red carpet in Hollywood and basking in the white flashing lights. I get to
choose who I’m going to be by buying what the mall offers me - this is
paradise. After a while, my legs start aching from all the walking and I find a
comfortable seat in the center of the mall and I start typing.
It’s amazing how different a mall
is from a church. The minute I enter the mall, 3 manikins in scandalous
clothing look down at me with cold, emotionless eyes trying to convince me to join
their religion. As I walk in, I am appalled at the sight of people mindlessly
walking from one store to another in search of ways to please their insatiable
desires for more. Every window displays all the different indulgences they have
and I am disgusted. The mall reeks of selfishness and greed. People don’t need
anything in the mall; they’re only here to satisfy their “limitless desires for
commodities” (80 Pahl). It seems the architects placed the sofas in the center
so even while you’re resting you can look at everything. The store clerks act
interested in me and ask how I’m doing and how they can help. But I know most
of them don’t care how I really am doing. They just want to swipe my plastic
card and the only reason they want to help is to make me feel guilty if I leave
without repaying them for the help they’ve given. They’re all wearing a mask,
trying to sell me their fabricated source of happiness. Nauseated by
everything, I sit on a hard wooden chair by Starbucks and write all these
things.
The first paragraph describes what
my initial feelings were as I entered the mall and the second paragraph
describes what my initial thoughts were as I entered the mall. My mind was in
the right place but my emotions were still trapped by the “religion of the
market” as John Pahl puts it (67). I left without buying anything, because I
wanted to show the mall that they could never define who I was by trying to
manipulate me into buying who I fantasized to be.
Wow, Eun Sung--this is an excellent post. I love the way you crafted it to show how the experience had the effect of dividing you against yourself.
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